since you left us and it still feels like yesterday. I guess it's
because I remember too many things and feel all the
emotions like they just happened. I woke up this morning
with thoughts and visions of you, wondering what you
could be doing right now and the number of new friends
and angels you would be chatting with now.
You were always the man of the people; who loved to put
smiles on faces, especially mine.
I also wondered what and who you would expect me to be
now. I wondered if I have done justice to at least a huge
portion of all the plans we had together.
Before I got out of bed I wanted to make sure that wherever
you are, there would still be a smile on your face when you
see how far I have gone. I nodded my head, smiled and got
up because I knew that God heard us those nights we held
hands and prayed together, asking for his help in
accomplishing what we set out to do, especially in the lives
of our children Isabel and Angelica. He has done great
things in our lives and has continued to be there for us.
Jaiye, your girls miss you so much and I have made sure
that whenever they hear any of your songs, they know it's
you because that voice has remained in their hearts. Isabel
still tells me how she knows that her shoe size came from
you and Angelica insists that her height has nothing to do
with me but owes it to you. Above all they know and will
always know what a wonderful and loving father you were.
Nothing will ever change that no matter what.
As I always say 'time does not heal wounds, it only makes
the load and pain lighter. Only God can heal wounds'.
Today I am writing this letter to you and I am not crying,
instead I am smiling because in my heart I know you are in
the best place ever, where your laughter will resonate.
I miss you so much my love and I know that when the time
comes I will see you again.
Okay, let me go and face the world now. You are so lucky
because you no longer have to deal with all the hate,
gossip, backbiting, deception, oppression, sickness, war,
accidents, disasters, robbery and all the other things the rest
of us have to deal with.
Rest in the arms of The Lord JAY.
Let me go and continue with all the negativity the world
brings. My happiness is that I am not going alone, my God
is with me all the way.
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